what is is with everyone around me fucking dieing? three people this year already! one is in the hospital they dont expect him to live. shot in the fuckin neck at work! i should have been there. the only reson he took that job was to get me back, i just couldnt stay in that hell hole. gods! troys gone, mike is on the way, jhon, my gods, who next? i just wanna curl up in a little ball and stay there.

whats wrong with my life, nothings going right, no one really cares i know, its just me trying to get things off my chest without beating the shit outta someone. neways im done im going home.